Today plan B was executed by Lady Elizabeth.
As I sat in the waiting room, I felt like I'd be perfectly happy to just sit in the waiting room either in silence or reading and I could do that for hours but before we knew it our rooms were ready. It was the first time I met Micah. He was so kind.
The Thai massage was absolutely incredible. Deep work was done releasing aches and pains I wasn't even aware I had. There is a specific burning sensation I experience when I'm getting deep work done. I love it. Not because it feels good in the moment but because I know it will feel amazing in the end. Beyond that, the deeper work tends to release truth, emotions and other things my body has learned to hold onto and I never ever know what will be released. It takes time...sometimes
I think last night I wanted to feel that again and that's what I meant by these two women as my daughters. That's what I wanted to experience and they were so perfect in their beauty, playfulness and joy. I enjoyed them so much.
We found the perfect spot on the beach with the bright moon above us. I didn't have my phone but I wish I did to capture them in the water with the flowers in their hair and the joy on their faces as they played in the water. I was perfectly content sitting in the sand listening to music. I felt something was coming up for me and I wanted to be semi alone to experience it.
Just then...Adele's song "Send my love" began.
The reason I stayed in my marriage as long as I did was because of love. I loved my husband deeply. Not well or perfectly but deeply.
I think I always knew that but sometimes the world likes to insert their opinions, Analysis, psychological evaluations, subjective findings and all of that jazz.i like to do that too. Figure things out. But beneath that lives the simplicity.
The experience was magic for me.
It makes me happy to know no matter what happens in life, or how things may appear, I have the capacity to love very deeply and against all odds.