Today I'm taking a break from packing to prepare the house for the arrival of the fearless weekend participants. Which means, there will be guests in the house from Wednesday to Sunday. Monique Darling is coming. I'm very much looking forward to meeting this woman. Her life journey is as unique as she is. She radiates joy through authenticity and has a non conformist spirit. She and a man named Reid Mihalko will be leading several workshops about relating fearlessly. I'm real excited to experience this.
This was planned months ago and a part of why I planned my next adventure to begin on May 1.
Even though I see myself as already being able to relate fearlessly...I am sure I will have several insights and learn a lot this weekend.
I saw the image above this morning on Facebook and I thought it was too cute not to share :)
Just 10 more days until I go to Boca Raton and I'm real excited about it because I can feel myself wanting to be with the women there. These woman have already made me feel so welcome and loved and I haven't even arrived yet. I'm also excited to explore Boca Raton and get to know the area.
This morning I was in flow. Mornings are sacred to me. I feel my most joyful self in the mornings. In the aruyveda system, my main doshas are Pitta, Kapha. I'm very "Kapha," in the morning. Which means I'm very Much in the slow energy of being. Just being. As I am preparing the house for guests-it's a joyful experience for me. Almost it's own meditation. I welcome the opportunity to have guests arrive and be able to use the house to create opportunities for people to connect and release long held blocks. To me, it's important work.
Yet, I'm currently living with a "Vata," person. Who doesn't experience mornings the way I do. I'm in flow and he barges in with his Vata energy. This feels like an intrusion. Primarily because I'm in slow deep joyful Kapha energy and he's in high "need to know now Vata" Energy. And I just can't connect to it. The energy itself disturbs me.
It would probably go better if there was a good morning or how are you or any common curtesy or acknowledgment that I'm a living breathing human being. I think that would be a good way to enter my space. And we have had this conversation a zillion times. I've tried to explain I can't be bombarded with business or practical questions. This isn't the office and I am not an employee. When you're vibrating in a warm way, having someone come in with their cold business energy is like being splashed with a bucket of cold water. It's energetically disturbing.
What this looks like on the outer field is:
He sees me, barks-wants answers to practical questions and I am incapable of giving him what he wants. I'm not intentionally withholding. I'm just unable to deal with the coldness of it.
But this morning I didn't actually know the answer to his question. Then he's committed to giving me another thing on my to do list. And that doesn't go over well with me at all. Particularly when I'm on my hands and knees scrubbing a sun room floor.
Say good morning or something that lets me know you have a pulse and realize I do too...and then we have a very different scene.
Vata. Go go go. Kapha be be be....
I'm certain It's as frustrating for him as it is for me.
Now it's back to preparing for *fearless relating*