Here in Hawaii, Kanikapila -is a style of Hawaiian music produced in an impromptu jam, most commonly taking place at a beach, or family gathering.
Here is the song I now know how to Hula to :)
I really needed that because sometimes, as a sensitive heart centered woman....Sometimes....I know something isn't about me, has nothing to do with me but if I've let someone into my heart....even in friendship-Sometimes when a person leaks their unhealed emotional self onto me, I feel it as if someone just unexpectedly threw mud on my soul sometimes and it takes me a minute to cleanse myself.
I'm able to see that and know that but there is a specific type of human I am very allergic to and I'm working on my allergies. Sometimes that means avoiding what you are allergic to vs trying to be a more enlightened being. I get to decide. We all get to decide.
I'm in the midst of making these decisions.
I said thanks but no thanks.
In my mind, the most loving thing he could have done-was to let go and embrace the part in him that was truly just like his father instead of resenting something that was now living in him.
But that requires a level of consciousness, the ability to forgive and the ability to be self-aware.
Acceptance is just the beginning really, embracing is a much more powerful healer and it's also a hell of a lot easier than many other long and twisty roads that just lead to a continuation of insidious cycles that keep us forever stuck... as we hold everyone hostage to our childhood wounds.
Round and round we go...
A part of life as we know and grow it.
That is just the way it can be sometimes.
It isn't personal and it's often an opportunity. But it sure can feel personal "in the moment." I have been there and I have leaked all over others. I have no judgement about it. I'm just no longer wanting to live that way.
I am very selfish for sure. I care about myself, my life, my mood, my feelings, my right to be fully who I am, my time, my focus and my energy.
I'm particularly protective of my peace of mind and my right to live in Bliss.
I am very selfish in all of these areas.
I bring a lot of love, Aloha, humor, kindness, more love and oodles and oodles of forgiveness and freedom to the table.
With me, you are free to be whoever the hell you are- wherever you are.
Until someone's emotional leakage -leaks onto me and feels like mud to my soul. When that happens, I can not help you.
RED LIGHT DOES MEAN STOP.
If I share my red light, and someone sees GREEN to go....
This is a person who is confused. That. Is. All
Maybe some day....when there is more consciousness around being able to honor another person's green, yellow and red lights.... That's when we can reconnect. I would love that. I know underneath of that is the desire to connect with me. But I do have boundaries. I do need my green, yellow and red lights honored.
Until then.... Enjoy.
The emotional leakage from one person...like a domino effect...and my doing the extra energy work to remove the mud led to other things. Like a splinter. I became unglued over a teeny tiny splinter. I began to question other connections. This was the impact on me. This is how my allergic reaction manifests sometimes.
I work very hard to keep my own energy as clean as possible. But I am human and flawed and vulnerable sometimes.
Ultimately though, I'm actively working on who I want to be. So I use these types of things to see where I am in my own development.
Now that I have access to what feels like mud to me, what hurts me, what requires an extra cleansing...I can create a path to avoid it.
I am relationship oriented in general. I like things to remain clean and I will go out of my way to create clean with a lot of people. Even the woman at the grocery store if I feel I wasn't leaving her better than I found her.
But there is a line.....It's a new one...and I'm learning how to honor it