Pua Lililehau Song!
"This is to you
O sage blossom
A cherished sweetheart
That attracts the mind"
Speaking of Hula, how in LOVE I am with the songs... This past weekend, while on the island of Kaua'i....I actually got to experience being and dancing at:
Kōkeʻe State Park
Kaua'i seemed like-the Seattle of Hawaii. It makes sense why that Island is so incredibly lush and rich in color, there is no shortage of rain. Yet, I was there and I was not going to walk away or turn away without trying to see. Between the mist, the rain and the trade-winds (which were reported as extreme until noon on the radio) It seemed like I would be lucky if I saw anything. And just as I put my phone in my bag...there was a moment, just this one moment where the mist and rain stopped just long enough for me to see...I couldn't take my eyes off of the beauty. By the time I thought to reach for my phone..it was raining and misty again.
To me, that's very lucky...It's a good thing I brought my hat and my beach towel! Soaking wet, cold and absolutely filled with joy...perfect!
Back to the connection between Koke'e and HULA......
I haven't completed learning it so half way through I am following my hula sisters which I'm starting to get very good at...being able to follow as closely as I possibly can. And I'm still trying to learn how to read the choreography because I just tend to learn better by being in it, doing it...moving, repeating it..through muscle memory, love of movement, following....
It's also a love song but it's the love of the land....and love...is just LOVE...
We learned this song at this tempo. HOLY HULA!!!
This moves VERY quickly and it almost reminds me of a country song. GiddyUP HULA....
And let me just say, this one I thought I would never ever get it so I went home and proceeded to practice it for about....40 hours total.
But then..this same song played "live" sounds like this: (A LOT SLOWER)
And Yes..it is the same exact song!!!!
In other news....
To Know Thy Self....
As strong and as confident and as ninja like as I am in staying in alignment with my own center (at least 3 weeks a month anyway) where I have the capacity to remain in my own belief system and my own Love Affair with My Self...
I seem to fall short with: the switch on/switch off thing in 30 seconds or less. In these cases, I feel like something is off with my equilibrium and because I am in charge of my own state and well-being I have a tendency to lean into myself and try and recover my equilibrium back as quickly as I can. Yet, I find the challenge is...As I continue to lean-in...as the other person withholds or runs for cover...it feels like it would help me if we both lean in. Call me a baby or whatever but I am a sensitive soul and an open-hearted person and sometimes I do need a little hand holding too. Sometimes I need a soft place to land. And sometimes, it is about me. Okay well, most of the time it is about me :) What do you expect I'm the only person who is me...I mean I don't know how else to say that.
It's that place where leaning in would be most powerful and the best for everyone (In my state of wanting a binky), yet...people can't do that. I'm seeing how often people can not and have a very hard time leaning-in.
How they are terrified.
It's not because they don't care, it seems to be because they don't know how or they do not trust and it's true you never know who you can trust so it's not an unusual way of being generally speaking...
The light switch thing...well that's just easier with people who are just a little bit of a douche, because that makes it real easy. There isn't even anything to it...but I don't meet, connect or let douche-ee people in as deeply or spend a whole bunch of time on them. I just am not attracted to them. I don't know how else to say that one either without just saying it.
All of the connections that end up going deep are with amazing humans who are just so...wonderful inside and out. That does not change or shift due to behavior or defaults. Amazing humans are still amazing.
SO it's next level now.... The growth spurt....
And I enter the scene or their lives and I'm like HEY YOU as I wag my tail....let's play...let's play and let's play.....
I am embodying Janet Rand's Poem "To Risk" at a much bigger level now
And that can cut too actually.. I am very much aware of that.
(Her Poem will be below my rant)
I'm like HEY! Let's play, let's be fools, let's weep in sentiment, let's reach out, let's expose our feelings (good, bad and ugly) let's share ideas, let's LOVE, let's live, hope and try!!!!! And if we mess up (because we will sometimes) let's try again!!!!
Let's dance in intimacy and let's keep doing that until we understand each other so deeply...we can honor one another and find new and creative ways to get back to the sweet spot. Sometimes I retract monetarily but since I'm an excitable puppy my bounce back time is about 1 minute to about an hour.
The other day, I was in a text connection with a person and we were deeply connected
Person "Are you ignoring me?"
(because I didn't respond in the 1 minute time frame I usually respond when I am very deeply connected to someone)
It was so funny because I couldn't even wait it out the 2 minutes before I responded with a "Yes, I am ignoring you"
I mean I could laugh for weeks over that one.
First of all, when you connect deeply there is no breeding ground where lies can happen or take root and that's what I want in my life and in connection. This person felt I was ignoring them, And while I was trying to figure out how I was feeling about something.. still... I was intentionally not responding as I was trying to lean into the sensations of my body and have that be congruent with what came out next.
This person felt what I was doing. And I have to say, I really love that.
That is the sweet spot and I absolutely adore people who have the same sense of humor about behavior and we can laugh at ourselves and each other in authenticity and depth. That's the good stuff there....connection...where you can feel what's true and the other person doesn't sing the song of denial to make you think you are crazy...let's stay in that zone...the juicy zone where there is no breeding ground where lies can grow...Yum Yum YUMMY....
You know...to get the rainbow you have to be okay with the rain...sometimes you are going to get wet...I'm pretty sure there are 100 ways to articulate.... communication may get hard and it may hurt and it may sting for a minute but..without the fear and without the lies we tell ourselves and each other...you can zoom and fly in affinity...and that is totally worth it if you ask me....
you are free and I am not.
Or I want to run away (like you did) but can not. It's not exactly the full story that I just ran away from life...That's not what happened (exactly) but that doesn't matter....Living on an island seems to have people think you don't live in "reality" but this is actually very much a reality..it's just a different choice, lifestyle.
In some cases, "You are free and I am not"-that is actually true, healthy and very wise-loaded with extreme integrity. In those cases-there is a softness to it. My respect runs so deeply and I am left with reverence.
But there are other cases..... where what I experience and sense can be articulated in that expression( I don't believe is 100% true but can be very true)
That whole "water seeks its own level" thing and inside of that a person is willing to drown out the inner voice of their own soul, thereby, making the choice to live below the line...
It is important to honor that too, to let people be who they want to be..... but sometimes it is a little harder to do at times...but only because I was "this close" to making that same choice and I am very much aware the road to freedom- from drowning is not an easy road to be on. It is no joke. It's painful, difficult and full of uncertainty that can bring you to your knees..and if you're not able to be on your knees... it can send you right back to the water again and again and again. Yet, I don't actually know what is true for anyone else or what is possible or what miracles can take place for others. All I know is..it is important that I do not interfere and if I don't...anything is truly possible.
It is sometimes true "you spot it cause you got it" -but it is also sometimes true... you spot it because you have been exactly where that person is and in the end -all you can do is love them and wish them the best life ever and hope you've somehow managed to touch them in a way that enhances the quality of their existence even if their existence does not include you and feel lucky to have had the experience you had because they touched you too...
Sometimes "Do No Harm" does mean....
Just let go
And let it flow, let it flow, let it flow
Everything's gonna work out right you know
Let go, and let it flow, let it flow, let it flow
Just let it go
You can have the big house, the cars, the money, the things..you can live on an Island and in paradise ...but without that warmth, without that love, without the depth of connection, relationships...without people, touch, care, heart soul and depth....there would be something missing.
Let's play, let's be fools, let's weep in sentiment, let's reach out, let's expose our feelings (good, bad and ugly) let's share ideas, let's LOVE, let's live, hope and try!!!!! And if we mess up (because we will sometimes) let's try again!!!!
To laugh is to risk appearing the fool,
To weep is to risk being called sentimental.
To reach out to another is to risk involvement.
To expose feelings is to risk showing your true self.
To place your ideas and your dreams before the crowd is to risk being called naive.
To love is to risk not being loved in return,
To live is to risk dying,
To hope is to risk despair,
To try is to risk failure
But risks must be taken, because the greatest risk in life is to risk nothing.
The person who risks nothing, does nothing, has nothing, is nothing, and becomes nothing.
He may avoid suffering and sorrow, but he simply cannot learn, feel, change, grow or love.
Chained by his certitude, he is a slave; he has forfeited his freedom.
Only the person who risks is truly free.
Often attributed to the poet and thinker, Leo Buscaglia, the real author of this inspirational verse is Janet Rand.