I'm estimating, by the end of the week I should have that all worked out. Yet, the true test will be this Sunday. If they play this song at the ranch I will be SO HAPPY!!!!!!!
Today was the first time I felt like I'm finally becoming accustomed to the advanced class. I have to say, that felt really good. I couldn't make my protein shake fast enough. I had that post hula class "I think I might die" sensation that goes away as soon as I get 30 grams of protein in my system. I try to eat before I go but it seems like time gets away from me somehow. Todays class was two solid hours of knees bent, shoulders back, hips moving. My whole body hurts in the best way.
I keep feeling Makani Ka'ili Aloha (song below) in such a deeply reverent way. It just does something to my insides. When Momi shared the expanded version of that love story, it just seeped in, my appreciation just gets deeper the more I hear it.
I was never taught the choreography. I just stand in the back row of class and follow the women. Today I was able to follow 95% of what they were doing. I felt beautiful in my own body, I felt like it was my love story and that feels amazing. To be able to feel the beauty of an unbreakable love that isn't even my own -at that level. It just fills me.
My godson and my cousin, they are both getting married and on the same day. I don't know how I'm going to make them both work but I don't want to miss either of them. My godson is as important to me as my family is. Even though we are not related by blood, he's one of my favorite people still.
Staying just where I am!
This sort of thing- is a thing for me. I'm literally excited and prepared for the intention and however it flows from there..it flows however, I'm still prepared for what I have taken literally. He really helped me see something that will allow me to articulate it in the future. As I'm pretty sure when other humans hear me say "The thread of desire," what they hear is sex. However, it's much more expansive than that.
Thread of Desire
Someone also said to me recently "You analyze my every move!" I thought, what the hell are you even talking about? You must have me confused with yourself or some other woman and also, that's rather insulting. People love to project what they do as if they don't do it. It's that human thing it's as weird and twisty now as it was 10 years ago. However, there is no power for me in focusing there. When I dwell in the possibility of my own existence and what will make things possible for me and my life....expanding my communication skill set is on the top 5 list of things to do. Expansion, my own...that's really the only place I have any real power in...so that's what I want to do and how I want to spend my time....