I love my journey and how clarity comes...whenever it comes...
I had the most authentic and beautiful breakdown/breakthrough experience this morning. I love the depth of my commitment to myself. I love being me. I love how my past is being released organically.
I love the process. Every morning I gift myself with the following routine:
A glass of warm water
Brushing teeth and tongue
a coconut or seseme oil self massage.
It's every. Single. Morning. (Exception-the first three days of my cycle-no oil massage because according to the science of Aryveda: a woman's body is naturally cleansing at that time.)
The combination of these gifts provides the perfect recipe for the unlocking of anything my body that needs to be released.
I've recently been told "Every day you work so hard and are so consistent, you really should be a toothpick by now." Lol.
Well, the goal isn't really to be a toothpick. I love my natural woman curves and my clothes are all fitting me very differently now. I know how incredibly stunning my body is at its perfect weight because I lived inside of its perfect weight for so many years. Im not made to be a toothpick. I'm made to be more like a goddess. Statuesque. And I love that about me.
And I'm not really in any rush either. Because my intention runs deep. I'm just not the quick fix type of gal. My goal here is to release all of the emotions and pain that causes the gain. Freedom in a real way at the level I want to be free doesn't happen over night. I'm good with that.
My breakdown was from 2013. This means, I'm moving through things so very quickly.
Again, it was during my exercise that another thing was released. I've added these incredible stretches that unlock my hips and torso and BANG-a memory resurfaced. I worked with it until it was gone. I now know exactly what to do.
And that's when my divorce papers arrived.
And so...90 days from now-that will be complete.
It's pretty straight forward now....
And so...every day I wait until I feel clarity within before I make a decision. The decision I made today is that I need 6 more months to be with ME. Just me with me. That's my next step.
I LOVE my roommate and I'm humbled and grateful for the love and beauty she has gifted me with. I want her in my life forever. But I sense if I'm really going to grow in the direction I need to grow in, I need to live alone for at least 6 months.