As I was reading the OM article, I felt the truth...
I think about this because these practices are built and remain strong in their individuality as it relates to both being their own business entities. Reminding me of Landmark Education and Scientology in terms of both having the power to improve and enrich a human beings existence.
I love my congruency in who I am and what I believe. As I believe in co-existence and expansion. This can be found throughout my life at every angle.
As it relates to these two meditative practices-they complement each other in ways that align with both concepts (co-existence and expansion)
My transcendental Meditation practice is every day, twice a day. From my very first TM, my experience is bliss in the form of feeling the truth of my sensuality. At first I thought that was just a product of the lack of sensuality in my marriage. And if I go into all of the areas where my sensuality has been held hostage (by me or the world) I could easily come to the conclusion that my TM being sensual has to do with what has been missing or stuck at various points on my journey. However it's over a year later of me being deeply committed to both my TM and my own sensuality that I'm very clear now-life for me, all of it: IS sensual.
In my very first TM, I came out of it nervous and making myself wrong. I asked my TM teacher if it was "normal" to feel sensual and sexual sensations moving through me. "Am I doing this TM thing wrong?"
She assured me-my experience was perfect. This uncertainty and concern of mine was residue from my marriage and years as a single mom where my desire to be a whole person was viewed as "wrong." I was told in many ways, shapes and forms (and often from other mothers who were not as happy as I was) that it was my job to suffer and sacrifice my wholeness to be a mom. That never felt right to me personally yet I found myself trying at times to be "normal,"
especially around desire, sensuality and my sexuality. That never goes very well for me, or anyone else for that matter.
I noticed that in other religions and other people who are not Christians yet have the same glow. I also noticed, people who truly embody a belief or lifestyle - they don't push or try to force you to be like them. Combine the glow with zero pushing and zero force and I tend to gravitate toward those people, places and things.
At some point along the way the illusion that there is only one way, one road, one belief, one way to be...dropped off the cliff for me. I look for the glow, I listen for power vs force and I feel for the sense of life enrichment or ways of being or thinking that adds value to life. In doing so, it has become impossible for me to pick one against another. Or to love one and not another.
That is very different to me though than the experience I am having as it relates to complimentary meditations.
I often wonder If Maharishi hadn't had a period of time where his guru status conflicted with the corporations reputation-if there would be a more open mindset to human sexuality. The more I read about guru's and their paths, the more I am seeing there is a moment where they are held accountable and responsible for the transference of followers who may see them as God instead of as a messenger. This is usually in the form of their mortal sexuality. You know-their humanism. I can almost see a scandal followed by a meeting with the CEO and the PR person in addition to a committee and or other followers all bringing their displeasure to the table and then all of a sudden-sex becomes something the Guru is no longer allowed to be interested in and it's framed under being an enlightened being. Or something.
I've actually experienced a "mini," version of this in a more open community but the leader/facilitator/guru did not stop being himself. His attention toward me upset a few humans. Instead of taking the upset on as belonging to him-what he did was own his right to be who he is and make choices that aligned with his own being and he also handled the upset people like a ninja. Either giving them what they wanted/needed or he spent time artfully bringing others back to their own growth and development.
My experience of this moment in time was complete discomfort when people got upset or mad that I was getting or giving attention. It felt yucky to me to be me. But I have experienced that sensation a lot in my life. So it seemed like a great opportunity for me to be in my own body and see what I do and who I am.
Which is the same to me as -
Don't pay attention to Scientology -just pay attention to landmark.
Don't pay any attention to orgasmic meditation-just pay attention to TM.
In this way, there just comes a time for me where I will leave, stop and run away. It usually happens the very moment where I am told what I should or shouldn't be paying attention to. And or-when someone vomits their fears onto me or tries to convince me there is no such thing as co-existence or complimentary practices.
I say there is. And I say there is because I am living it.
It's kind of funny how people think orgasmic meditation, being open or having an expansive world view is something you can catch (like a disease) if you're around me -you may catch my disease. You know. There isn't anything more dangerous than a free woman.
As a single free woman going on vacation with married women- I was essentially seen as a danger. As if me and my leather pants were going to somehow morph the most loyal married woman into the lions den of sin with me. And this woman is one of the most loyal wives I've ever known.
Being single, free and wild was not something another woman was going to catch from me like a disease. But somehow me and my leather pants became the focal point of their marriage.
First thoughts/feelings for me was once again me feeling bad as if I did something wrong, as if I was a bad woman. Second thoughts-please stop using me in this way. Your marriage has zero to do with me"
It was very simple actually...we all enjoyed things the same way as women. By 9 pm, as the married ladies went to bed, me and my leather pants went out for a bit. I was also home by 11 or midnight. I slept hard and I slept alone every night. I woke up at 5, went to the gym, walked around, ate breakfast and essentially waited until the married women decided to get out of bed. By the time we all went to brunch about 10 am or later, I had already eaten my first meal at 6:30 am and already had a lot accomplished on my own before they even opened their eyes. Any single moment I may have had wasn't exactly hidden or a secret, it was just that in the waking hours where we were all together the point was for us to be all together. Me having a little fun for a few hours each night didn't hurt anyone or anyone's marriage.
I may have been single, wild and free but that doesn't mean I didn't have the capacity to honor the women I love, or their marriages. But I have learned, men do fear that and that's sad to me. Married women and single women remaining connected, again-can compliment one another.
It would have gone a lot better if I had been "normal," and opted to suffer after my divorce and the death of Donovan. Had I decided to be miserable single and remain just sad enough...and lived in order with the laws of society (vs my own nature) I'd have been the first woman any husband would have wanted his wife to be with. But single mothers who wear leather pants are oh-so-dangerous.
Even OM (Orgasmic Meditation) The name of the company is "OneTaste,"
Just as the great ocean has one taste, the taste of salt, so also this teaching and discipline has one taste, the taste of liberation."
This is very clever. Oddly, I don't actually hear this is the only way to liberation. What I take away from these words is that this company has one taste/point/purpose and that is liberation...
Just my random share on Soul Sunday
I love my life. I love TM so very much. I am grateful for that.
I love OM very much. I am grateful for that.
That is all