Fortunately, it's nice that some people who have lived here a long time can still appreciate them. Maybe not as much as a newbie like me, however; it's nice to be around people who still embrace the beauty no matter how long they have been here.
Just the practicality of needing my current address to be able to send me the final document that will officially (legally) finalize our divorce. It's a fascinating thing to have someone be one of the key players in your existence for over a decade and then there is nothing left to process except the practicality of completing something legally.
Gentle thoughts floated into my consciousness regarding how sad it is that two people could co-exist together for over a decade and not really have anything to say to one another simply because the relationship has changed form. Another gentle thought (with no emotional tugging, just noticing really) is how I'm still surprised that I actually left this man. Over a year ago, I was at an empowerment workshop sharing truth with a circle of some of the most supportive women on the planet and I was fiercely committed to sticking it out thick or thin, for better of for worse.
And now, here I am, living in Hawaii, alone- recreating my entire life.
And as I'm doing that, I'm keenly aware that I'm now living in an actual city. Honolulu is beautiful and it's still a city. There is a baby crying next door. It's almost midnight. There is also a person digging through the dumpster right now too. Here in Waikiki there are homeless people and there are also these fascinating people who have made a job for themselves by going from dumpster to dumpster to take all of the recyclables. They ride bikes and tie trash bags on all sides of their bikes. There is this one older gentlemen who does this and his body has muscles in places I have never seen muscles before. His muscles have muscles. I'm not kidding....
I thought it was pretty incredible that when I first arrived here in Honolulu, my very first experience at Unity Hawaii church (which I have also been watching live-stream) I sat down and received a flyer that said he and his wife were coming. I was really amazed because every Sunday I say to myself "I'm going to see him preach live some day"
And here...that someday happens to be tomorrow...
"To make the discovery that you may go on to live the life of your dreams"
YES PLEASE AND THANK YOU